Greetings,
"I am so selfish!" These are the words
that I said to myself this morning. As a theatre professional, graduate student
and mother of five creative artists, I have a very busy week coming up. “I
can’t get all that I need to get done.” Then I paused. "I am so
selfish!"
This past Saturday, my husband of 16 years buried
his mother. All this past week he spoke of memories that he would cherish
forever. She was a principal and highly devoted mother. So many of the speeches
at the wake and service described her as a family oriented person who would
give anything to her family. She cared so much about her family. “What will
they say about me?” Do I need to sacrifice time, energy and sanity to do it
all?
My kids are in violin, tutoring, fencing, dance,
gymnastics, and piano. They have play dates and I home school them. I want my
kids to have what I didn't. I want them experience EVERYTHING and then
have a choice of the direction that they want to go. I want to be a supermom so
that my kids can have fond memories of me giving my all to them.
A friend of mine called me to give her condolences
and I told her that I was doing my homework. She laughed and said, "Girl
you are always doing something. What are you doing now?" It made me think.
I have my kids schedule and then there is mine. I am in grad school, writing a
movie, two books, two plays and starting another theatre company. It is
too much. If I don't settle down then my kids might not have those memories.
I am writing this blog for those entertainment moms
that drive their kids everywhere for everything. I know how you feel about
having well-rounded children but when do you decide that enough is enough? When
do you look at your kids and decide that too much enrichment might be hurting
them?
I took a moment to pray about week and just ask for
strength. I can't do it all in one day. My homework will get done, my house
will be clean, my kids will get to their classes and I will make it to my
rehearsals and auditions, but it won’t all get done today. Today will be my
day.
All things creative,
Enrika M. Sissle
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